Is it worth it???

I have been asking this myself the whole day today. Do I really have something to gain from all the Lifestyle Changes I've set? I say I do...but it keeps me wondering that is it worth changing my lifestyle if it means losing some of my already scarce friends? I have been declining invites to go out lately, and I'm pretty sure some of them may have already taken it personally. 
But then again, I think of all people they should understand. They should respect what I have decided to go through right now. I expect them to support me. I expect them to at least accept my decision. If not, well...let's not think about that.
Anyway, I just needed to let this out. I still believe there's something big in it for amidst all these changes. Miracles still do happen, I think...

Let It Rain

shout it out
i can't hold back no more
i let it out
all these feelings that were trapped inside
i was frozen everytime
i looked in your eyes
clear my head
from all the cluttered things
i should've said
that wasn't me
no i can't live like that
I'm waking up and there is no
looking back

every little tear
i was scared to cry
everyting i feared but i kept inside
i don't wanna hold it back one more day
wash it away, every tiny thought clouding up my head
every single word that i never said
i refuse to feel ashamed
let it rain...
let it rain...

clear the sky
i start to breathe again
nothing to hide
let you through to who
i am inside
every layer
'til you get underneath my skin
let you in...let you in

Insensitive...

I am almost always amazed at how some people who have hurt you in the past can think that everything's fine and that you're still friends. Moreso, people whom you consider as exes (and exes from a not so nice separation) can be so casual in dealing with you like nothing have happened. Yes, I agree that I should have already moved on. And don't get me wrong, I have. It's just that exes are exes.  They are not meant to be befriended. You can forgive them but you have to forget them completely. Should I just remove him from my Facebook friends list?